I'm a sinner.

Sometimes I feel totally and completely worthless, and a 100% failure. And I wonder "Why?" Perhaps it's because I feel frightened at the thought of witnessing. Maybe it's because I get angry too easily. Because I'm not patient. Because I don't like housekeeping (and I want to be a homemaker someday). Because I'm doing poorly in Algebra 1. Because I am a sinner. I know God loves us and forgives our sins, yet I want to ask, "How long can He keep forgiving? How could He love me?" I keep messing up. Keep failing. Keep on sinning.

 But then I remind myself of Paul. He was a sinner. He even persecuted God's people. Yet he was saved, forgiven, and loved by the Most High King, the God who knows our hearts, yet loves us in spite of it. And I wonder how this mood could come on, when I know He loves me, He is my master, my King, my God.

~Praise to the Almighty, the King of all nations, who was, and is, and is to come!~

Grace be with you, and keep on the straight and narrow path!


Abby :D

(I just had to share this song. It seemed to fit the mood, and the words are beautiful, just beautiful)

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea,
A great high Priest whose Name is Love,
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart.
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart,
No tongue can bid me thence depart.


When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin.
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free,
For God, the Just, is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me,
To look on Him and pardon me.


Behold Him there, the risen Lamb,
My perfect, spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace.
One with Himself, I cannot die,
My soul is purchased by His blood.
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ, my Savior and my God!

One with Himself, I cannot die,
My soul is purchased by His blood.
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ, my Savior and my God!